I love you more than me

As I write this blog, I hope a sweet release comes upon the prophets of Adonai. The time to go forth and function in your role is here. May we remain humble in this journey. For those reading who are not prophets or don’t believe the office still exists, I ask you to read with unbiased eyes and a heart to understand. Just because the prophet is misunderstood doesn’t mean they don’t exist. There are many immature prophets in modern times; please don’t let that taint your view. We can’t erase people just because of a misunderstanding of the Word.

Around five years ago, I became pregnant with my sixth child. We had five boys, and this pregnancy was a surprise. In my mind, I was finished having children, oh but Abba had other plans. I had desperately wanted a daughter right after our first child was born. I watched as the sonogram revealed another sweet boy to add to our tribe with each pregnancy. I was filled with gratitude for these boys of mine; they stole my heart every time, and yet a longing for a daughter’s soft and gentle presence. We finally received a precious daughter, and I remember hearing the Father name her, “Lila Rose, a sweet-smelling aroma in a dark place.” I knew she would bring much joy and laughter to the lives she touched; feeling her excitement to be alive in my belly was confirmation. Let’s fast forward to the present time. She has truly lived up to her name in this short time. I was telling my sweet Lila Rose that I love her. She looked at me and said words that stopped me in my tracks. I love you more than me, Mom.

Her words unlocked doors I was unaware of in my soul. I pondered many things. I found my mind thinking about prophets. I thought about these fiery men and women—their words and how we see them. I felt a sting in my heart. Tears rolled down my face, dropped to the ground, and quickly disappeared into the dirt—the most misunderstood role in the body. Yeshua was the spirit of prophecy and notably one of the most hated men to walk the Earth. Yeshua wept. He still prays on our behalf. As the tears stopped, a change came over me; I felt freedom and warmth. I understood the call and felt the journey. A sweet-smelling aroma in a dark place had me looking to the sky. But why? Because I love you more than me. 

10 Then I fell down at his feet and worshiped him. But he said to me, “See that you do not do that—for I am only a fellow servant with you and your brothers and sisters who hold to the testimony of Yeshua. Worship God! For the testimony of Yeshua is the Spirit of Prophesy.” Revelation 19:10

41 As He drew near and saw Jerusalem, He wept over her, Luke 19:41

20 “I pray not on behalf of these only, but also for those who believe in Me through their message, 21 that they all may be one. Just as You, Father, are in Me and I am in You, so also may they be one in Us, so the world may believe that You sent Me. 22 The glory that You have given to Me I have given to them, that they may be one just as We are one— 23 I in them and You in Me—that they may be perfected in unity, so that the world may know that You sent Me and loved them as You loved Me. John 17:20-23

As we study the prophets, we have this vision of rough men who have knives for fingers and mantles as sharp as sickles, ready to send us to the depths of Sheol with their condemnation. Their words penetrate callused hearts and awaken anger in men they didn’t know they had. We wrestle with their preconceived arrogance and judgmental views. Yet, in secret places, they weep. They are pleading for the rejection to cease so their voice may be heard, may changes occur from the heart, is the thought. Begging mercy, for we know not what we do, Abba. Have pity, Adonai, for the house of Jacob is small. Then suddenly, we hear go out and speak to my children- an echo of daunting words found in the prophet’s soul. As the prophet has knelt down before Adonai, a humbled mess, they now must stand firm, like adamant, and speak the heart of Elohim to those they were praying for, and this includes themselves. Knowing full well they are just as sinful as the next. Having endured the message’s trial, they must now be tested after delivery. This cycle goes on until the prophet sleeps and is no more. But why? Because we learn to love you more than me.

60 Then he fell on his knees and cried out with a loud voice, “Lord, do not hold this sin against them!” After he said this, he died. Acts 7:60

3 “Adonai Elohim, please pardon! How can Jacob stand, for he is small?”

 Adonai relented concerning this. “It shall not be,” Adonai said. Amos 7:3

The prophet then and now is shaped and built to love so fiercely and so strongly that they are more than willing to lose their lives, friendships, titles, and more if it means seed of hope and resurrection is planted in the hearts of those they just pierced. If there were ever a walking contradiction, that is a prophet. They appear one way to humanity, but Abba knows who they are deep inside. Eventually, they stop trying to explain their identity and walk in it. Knowing the losses they suffered and the new ones to come, they make their faces like flint after the sorrows roll away. Prophets are not done away with, nor are they waiting to return. We are here, learning and enduring. Prophets need to find other prophets to learn with, grow, and mature. In Scripture, they had the school of the prophet. We need to learn from seasoned prophets balanced in all of Scripture, Torah, and the New Testament. Without this balance, prophets are not mature enough to speak with circumcised tongues. I would like to invite you to read more on the prophets and the office of the prophet at my dear friends website Tekoa Also, if you haven’t already check out our YouTube channel for prophets: Elijah’s Prophetic Cup.

If this blog has ministered to you, reach out. Let’s connect, prophets need each other. This walk is not for the faint of heart or the immature. As iron sharpens iron, may we do so in the counsel of the wise and balanced. May the prophets of Adonai come forth with circumcised lips and hearts refined, like a sweet-smelling aroma in a dark place, because we have learned to love you more than me.

9 As ointment and perfume gladden the heart,

so the sweetness of one’s friend comes from his sincere counsel.  

17 As iron sharpens iron,

so a person sharpens the countenance of his friend. Proverbs 27:9,17

Doest Thou Correct Me?

Prophets get a bad wrap at times. However, I can see why. If someone were to ask you if you knew a prophet of Adonai, what would be your answer? There is much to ponder and sift through. Most think of Prophets and cringe. We read about them in the Bible, strong-faced men and women, adamant and strong-willed. The Biblical prophets never used their authority to sway the people or push their weight around. I think we get confused on what a prophet is because most “profits” (pun intended)we see roaming around today aren’t anything like the Biblical accounts we read about. Let’s take a walk with a few of these fiery men to get a better look into the heart of a prophet. We must remember that prophets are built and knitted together. Initially, they try to run from the call. Elijah was called a troubler of Israel, yet He was sent to correct the passive King Ahab. Let’s dissect what went down before one of the greatest showdowns we have ever read about between Elohim and the baalim.

” Now when Ahab saw Elijah, Ahab said to him, “Is it you, the one who causes trouble for Israel?” But he answered, “I have not troubled Israel. Rather, it is you and your father’s house—by forsaking the mitzvot of Adonai and going after the Baalim” (1 Kings 18:17-18).

Oh Ahab, why couldn’t you see that it was Adonai that had sent this “troubler”? What we see in others is first found in ourselves. Ouch! The prophet endures many crushing’s and desert seasons before Adonai sends them out among the people. Those seasons of pruning’s and refining’s give the prophet the assignment and prepare him to correct his brothers and sisters. I think many view the prophet as harsh, hypocritical, or judgmental. But if we don’t understand the process of making a prophet, we will see with a dark lens. It’s funny how we think it is the prophet coming as a stink eye, yet because of the lack of understanding of the prophet, it was the people who needed corrective lenses. It is wise we remain humble and teachable. Who sent the prophets? Let’s see. 

“Now it was after many days that the word of Adonai came to Elijah in the third year saying, “Go, show yourself to Ahab; then I will send rain on the land. So Elijah went to show himself to Ahab” (1 Kings 18:1).

 “Then I heard the voice of the Lord saying, “Whom shall I send? And who will go for us?” And I said, “Here am I. Send me!” He said, “Go and tell this people” (Isaiah 6:8-9).

” The word of Adonai came to him during the days of King Josiah of Judah, son of Amon, in the thirteenth year of his reign”(Jeremiah 1:2). 

” This is what the Lord says: (Amos 1:3).  

I want to back up a bit and go back to Isaiah 6. Something exciting takes place here. Isaiah sees a sight he will never forget. Prophets hear. The prophets see. Their senses are heightened because of everything they have endured in the night. Whether Isaiah was in a trance, had a vision, or was in a dream, he saw. 

” In the year of King Uzziah’s death, I saw Adonai sitting on a throne, high and lifted up, and the train of His robe filled the Temple” (Isaiah 6:6).

Can you imagine seeing six-winged, flying, fiery serpents that are passionately preaching holy, holy, holy? My heart paused for a second. In the presence of Elohim, I could not stand; could you? Then we read that one of these fiery ones, the seraphim, brings a lump of hot coal from the altar and puts it to Isiah’s lips. But before all this, Isaiah humbly cries out: 

Oy to me! For I am ruined! For I am a man of unclean lips” (Isaiah 6:5).

This introspection is the epitome of a prophet. They cry out day and night to El. They know they are not perfect, holy, or clean. They also know they are sent to a stubborn house. Amos and others cried, “Who will listen to me? I’m just a farmer; I am slow to speak.” Yet, the Holy One knows all this and still confides the most intimate, bittersweet riddles to His prophets. 

Adonai knows His prophets in the most profound sense of knowing! The mature prophet weeps in the hiding places of their caves. Then, when it is time, they appear with a deep-seated love that appears in the form of “harsh” correction and judgment. But is it? The one sent to correct must search the heart. Those that are corrected must search the heart. Is this too for our good? 

“And I am dwelling among a people of unclean lips.

For my eyes have seen the King, Adonai-Tzva’ot!”

 Then one of the seraphim flew to me, with a glowing coal in his hand, which he had taken with tongs from the altar. He touched my mouth with it and said:

“Behold, this has touched your lips. Your iniquity is taken away, and your sins atoned for” (Isaiah 6:5-6)

See how Isaiah first shares his condition before sharing the state of his fellow people? In every story of a prophet, if we look close enough, we can see the humbling before the call to correct the body. Interesting, isn’t it? We must start to look at the body with all its offices (roles) the same way Adonai looks at it. Otherwise, we will not understand the voice of the prophet. We don’t see or hear what the prophet endures behind the scenes; we judge them as harsh by what we see in front of us. Some have had fiery coals placed on the lips to appease the iniquity. 

Our life lessons teach us how to minister to others. If my lips weren’t unclean, I wouldn’t have the authority to share how important it is to have clean lips—no lashon hara (evil tongue). But maybe what we think of as evil speech is a correction from Adonai? Love is correction. 

What are the prophets always saying? Come back to your first love! Why does this deeply offend people? I get confused, honestly. I have been corrected in my life many times, and each time it was painful to acknowledge my flesh issue. But because someone loved me enough to correct me, I could see. I could see how my ego was causing harm. I could see how my heart desired what it wanted, regardless of the cost to others and myself. I could see how my Abba longed to be echad (one) with me. Abba, we are a people of unclean lips, yet we are your holy priests! Duality at its best.  

Isaiah says something so brave: Hineni, hineni! Here I am, send me! Hahaha, I have to laugh because he is eager to serve Adonai of Hosts yet has no clue of the assignment. Adonai now gives the assignment. Can you relate? 

Then He said: “Go! Tell this people: ‘Hear without understanding, and see without perceiving.’ Make the heart of this people fat, their ears heavy, and their eyes blind. Else they would see with their eyes, and hear with their ears, and understand with their heart, and return, and be healed” (Isaiah 6:9-10).

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 Did you spot the prophetic language: hear, understand, see, perceive, ears, eyes. It has always fascinated me how the prophet is a walking contranym, contradiction-a green stop sign, anyone? The prophet is an enigma for those witnessing the prophet and a surreal lifestyle for the prophet. The prophetic one is always trapped between the heavenly realm in awe and fear of what they see and hear from the Holy One. The prophet, though human, is trying to convey this spirit-filled message to their brothers and sisters. We must remember,

“Elohim is Spirit, and those who worship Him must worship in spirit and truth” (John 4:24).

There is so much pain the prophet feels from all sides. I hope this blog has helped you understand the prophet a little more. This is just the tip of the iceberg or the entrance to the cave if you will. Please be more understanding with the Prophets assigned to you. Use wisdom when dealing with immature prophets; we all need correction.